My Biggest Regret

I saw this video going around on Facebook and decided to watch it, even though you could anticipate what people would say and write, and I already knew how it would make me feel (but maybe that’s exactly why I decided to watch it). It’s a theme that really resonates with anyone, regardless of who you are and where you are in life. My friend @ameliaroche recently wrote a few thoughts on the video and how regret personally affects her current struggles. 

What’s my biggest regret? I can’t say that I have something that I particularly regret right now but I worry that if I am not more proactive, I will soon begin to regret one thing in particular. I don’t want to regret not living my life to my full potential. I want to be creative. I want to spend time doing things that I enjoy doing like painting, drawing, taking long walks, photographing nature and the built environment, reading, sitting outside in the sun, and traveling. Do I do these things now? Sure, but it’s sporadic. When @hunterandgatherer and I start a family, I want our children to have fond memories of me sitting at the easel or reading them stories. I don’t want to be someone who goes to work day in and day out with no true passion and hobbies. 

So what’s holding me back? I’m not scared. I think I’m just lazy. I really want to build a community of individuals that’s a support group instead of feeling like we’re constantly in competition for attention and praise. I need to take some time for myself to really rediscover why I create art. I need something desperately to spark my motivation and interest again. As a couple we’ve fallen into this routine of rushing to work, rushing home, cooking dinner, avoiding chores, and vegging in front of a screen before bed. I want to live a life that is more purposeful, even if it means being tired because I stay up later trying to do the things I think are important.

All of this ties into the season of Lent that is coming up next week. Check back because I look forward to sharing more thoughts on that soon.

Are you living the life you want to live today?